The Tower

•August 14, 2017 • Leave a Comment

TowerThe Tower is the most loved and hated card of the tarot…in my opinion.  It represents destruction, but can mean to tear down to create better.  This is the energy that I have been feeling lately, the Mercury Rx in Virgo in this Leo energy.  This card follows the Devil card, which is about what we are tied to, such as addictions, but can mean you need to let loose a bit and have some fun.  The Tower, with this present energy, makes me really feel the realness of Soul shining through.  We have conscious brought our self to some point.  By our actions, or maybe lack there of, we have put our self into a self destructive situation.  Now, at first, maybe we couldnt see the full picture of it all, now we are seeing how this decision has brought us unhappiness.  This could be with our jobs, relationships, or some kind of personal loss.  When we are in the middle of this, we fail to see the perspective of “this could be a good thing’ concept. We are humans, and can be too quick to judge.  Maybe this “loss” is more of a blessing.  Maybe this is the extreme it had to come to to make you see with clarity.

tower1Many things keeps us tied to things that are not healthy for us; jobs, relationships, or even where we live.  Many of us have become so used to being the chameleon, we actually forget our true color.  I remember as a teen growing up in a small town being this exact way.  I was unique, or weird, when it wasn’t cool. I knew that I thought differently, seen things differently, and I tried to fit in.  Many years have past me by since those days, and I will say I am not so much of the “fit in” kind of person.  I am still quiet around strangers because I know me, and some cant handle all this sweetness at one time.  The mold has followed me though, as it does many, into our every day lives.  Today, more than ever, we are really beginning to ask ourselves “Am I truly happy?”.  Many are changing jobs, leaving unhealthy marriages, and striking out to be who they are in all their glory.  They are taking that leap and becoming awesome entrepreneurs, starting businesses that are just quiet clever.  At this time, many are coming out of their cocoons, emerging whole and full of life….feeling passion once again.  The are hearing the voice of the Leo and shining brightly from their Soul.  They are lighting others candles, being the beacon in the night to help others learn to shine their own inner light.  No more are they taking the “you’re too much, you’re too bright, you’re too weird”, they are letting their flags fly high and hearing their higher calling.  But what about the others?

Change is hard, especially when there are other people and things to consider.  You’re not only changing your life, you are changing the unfolding of others.  Some let guilt convenience them that its not time, do what’s comfortable.  That word comfortable has gotten so many of us in situations where we have to literally dig our self out of the rut.  Change looks like chaos, it can make you feel like you’re in the middle of a tornado just watching things fly around you.  But it simply comes down to “Is this the life you truly want?”  is it?  Are you so lost in the illusion, that you are missing the reality?  One question I like to ask myself is ” What do I know, that I haven’t let myself see?”.

tower3Are you living in a burning tower and don’t realize it?  Is this clinging to the old crumbling way going to force you to jump from the windows…..or will you follow that flow and grow?  Many Tower cards show a tower on fire and people actually jumping from the high windows… this what it’s going to take for you?  I have also been told that I can either go into change willfully, or be dragged kicking and screaming by my hair.

At this time, it is the energy of tearing things apart to fix them, to rebuild better.  It’s a time of examining all of the parts piece by piece.  Can it be fixed?  Do you even want to fix it?  Is this something necessary in your life?  Can you accept it?

Here’s a mantra that I felt while I was writing this:  Can I go peacefully into change? Or will I be torn from my comfortable place? Will I shine my inner light bright and bold? Or will I run as it unfolds?  These gifts are mine and mine alone….Will I use them and shine so bright and bold?

The walls have been tumbling, the fires are lit….please dont make yourself have to jump out of the windows for your life.



Mercury Retrograde In Virgo 

•August 12, 2017 • Leave a Comment

Merry Meet everyone!  I hope you all get a chance to go out and watch the meteor showers tonight, its supposed to be at it height.  There is indeed some interesting happenings in our heavens here lately, and I know we are all getting ready to experience that solar eclipse.  
Just a little while ago, Mercury went into retrograde in the sign of Virgo.  With Mercury in retrograde we are reminded to revisit, renew, contemplate, and remember.  Since Mercury is in its home planet of Virgo, there is a harmonious energy radiating from this union.  Now we all know that Mercury is about communication, but did you also know that it is about how we learn as well.  When a planet is in a sign, we have to consider that energy as well.  Virgo is is analytical and is about improvement.  If you have been having a challenging time with something, this energy is here to aid you to rectifying it.  Virgo likes to look at things…is it working right or is something broken?  If something isnt right, it will take it apart, see what is going on, and then fix it. This is a good time to get things that are broken fixed as well. When Mercury is in retrograde, this is the perfect time to do this.  As we go inward to revisit things, we are able to pull it apart and see where the malfunction is.  When we go inward, we are able to learn and to grow.  This gives us the time to contemplate all areas of our life.  Looking and examining each area of your life.  Are you happy or sad?  Are you thriving or struggling?  Remember who you are, and renew yourself.  Virgo is also the healer, so this can be a great healing time for you.  The trick is to release the illusion of control, and allow the truth to illuminate before you.  The day after the solar eclipse, and new moon, the Sun will join Mercury in the sign of Virgo.  The Sun is the soul, the ego, and Mercury, of course, is the mind.  Now at this time, be very conscious, because when the Soul and Mind combine magic happens. This energy makes the energy fertile for those A-HA! Moments.  You may learn knew things about yourself, discover new talents, or decide to go a complete opposite place than where you are now.  
We are gearing up for this New Moon Solar Eclipse, and of course I will write on that as well.  It is absolutely amazing what all is going on in our heavens now.  Remember, we are in the middle of great change, be patient and watch the unfolding.  This is time to examine and fix.
This energy will be intense at times so it will be really important to set your intentions on what you need to work on, what you need to finish, and what you need to improve.  Allow yourself some time and space to release and go with the flow. This is not the energy to be so serious, relax and allow the unfolding.  Also, put things into practice.  If you know something’s needs work, then fix it.  I will say again, the best way to use this energy to the best outcome is to activity go with the flow.  

Retrograde isnt something to fear, it is just a way to let us see what needs some attention, and fixed.  Learning how to identify these energies, working with them, will help us have happy lives.  The Mercury retrograde just allows us the time to identify and fix what isn’t working in our lives.  

Remember, you have to give yourself the time and space to do this!

Happy renewal time and may you have many A-HA! Moments.
Many Blessings,


Beyond the Surface ~ Tarot Message

•July 27, 2017 • Leave a Comment



The QUEEN OF WATER is one of emotional stability and healing.  Water is about our intuition, dreams, emotion, and healing.  This card, in the past, has always pointed to some one who doesnt let their life be ruled by their emotions.  As I sit with this beautiful card, I am reminded of the depth of the ocean.  I am reminded of those things that we keep hidden in the dark recesses of the our emotions.  Many time we go through events that are very traumatic.  We push on, continue on with our lives, busying ourself with this or that trying to convince ourself that we are getting over it.  With this action, we are placing a veil over our faces so we cant see the truth that is really there.  Which leads us to another facet this card relates to is relationships.  How are the relationships in your life? How’s your relationship with yourself?

This card is showing me the things that we keep in those deep waters of the emotions.  It 6585199607_2f67ef09a4_zis talking to me of healing the wounds that we have covered up. Instead of facing (she has her eyes shut) we refuse to meet that which proposes great challenges for us.  We keep telling our self that ignorance is bliss, but you’re not going to cover these issues up for long.  All things are exposed in one form or another, the unknown will be made known. Here, this Queen takes us to healing deep wounds.  These wounds express themselves in different way, begging to be healed.  This wound promotes fear, fearful of things we dont even realize we are fearful of.  How do you react to certain things? Do you have a trigger…and how do you respond?  These things will hold us back, keep us from manifesting and reaching our goals.  Writing down your dreams will be good at this time, because they have the ability to help us heal.  Why do I keep going through the same things over and over again?  Well, I do not heal from it..I do not take the lesson that it is offering me.  We want spiritual unions, but yet we do not release the old lustful ones.  We want one thing, but we keep going back to the old way.  We can not have the new when we do not leave the past behind.

If we truly want to strive, we have to get passed all holds us back. We have to look deep within our Souls and stop living in the illusions we make for our self. Cry, scream or punch a pillow, but you are going to have to get this energy out.  This energy will manifest itself in different way…illness, depression, weight gain, addictions, weight loss…  We speak of harmony and balance, well this is the way we get it.  We have to take the garbage out or the place stinks.  We have to stop fearing that which hides in our shadows. This is one thing that the Leo energy brings forward…the Sun!  The Leo sun encourages you to bring out your uniqueness, your gifts, that which you are still fearful of and heal.  Love yourself enough to allow the completely healing to take place.  How can we be our true selves, when dont heal? How can we love, and have successful relationships with others when we dont have a healthy relationship with our self.

Love yourself, show your pain compassion, heal…so you can learn, change, and manifest so you can have the harmonically balanced life we wish to have.

Many Blessings,




Leo New Moon

•July 23, 2017 • Leave a Comment

leonewmoon7232017Happy New Moon in Leo!  The Moon moves from Cancer to Leo at 4:34am, giving way to our New Moon at 5:46am est. I love the sign of Leo, it is about joy and FUN!  I feel that this is a good energy as we are coming up on our eclipse on August 21st.  The Sun and Moon have come out of Cancer, sort of like a birth.  As they are going into Leo, it is like coming into our true Self.  Leo’s planet is the Sun, and brings joy. This is our creative self, strength and love.  This will definitely jump-start this “new beginning” energy. I also want to add that the Moon’s North Node (which is where we are going) is in Leo as well.  So the energy of the true authentic self is really making itself known.  We are in a place of transition, and we have to understand that this doesnt happen over night.  With Venus (Gemini) opposing Saturn (Sagittarius Rx), our values are being challenged.  Saturn is all about structure, boundaries, so at this time you may find yourself having to draw these boundaries with others.  We may find ourself really having to stand up for what we value and love.  This is a time to connect with like minds as well.  We are tired of not fitting in, putting on a mask in our to exist.  This energy is one of new beginnings, this also means it is a time for endings.  If there are contracts we would like to end, now is the time to do so.  Jupiter is still in Libra, so yes the ground is fertile.  

Here, the emphasis is on the Self, but not in selfish ways.  This means opening up to our creativity, what brings us joy, what we value and love, that which makes us shine bring from within.  When we are not with our “tribe”, we will experience great challenges with others and we will be required to make our boundaries known.  I feel that boundaries have really been in the forefront, and we should not ignore this.  When you are not able to function to your fullest ability, this thwarts your energy causing disruptions…such as illness.  

On to our reading;

Our first card is STRENGTH, not forceful, but more of a gentle strength. Remain focused and determined. Keep your eyes on your goal.  You can do this!!  Believe in yourself, stay confident.  This card represents the energy of the new moon.

Our next card is 8 of SWORDS, this is all about restrictions.  Are you blocking yourself?  Time to free yourself, and move on.  You must take responsibility for yourself, and cut yourself free from what is keeping you trapped. Listen to your intuition, you must not do what ultimately hurts you.  There is no room for fear.  

Our next two cards (they popped out together) are the KNIGHT OF SWORDS AND KNIGHT OF WANDS.Swords represent Air/Intellect and this card simply means “ Have No Fear”.  Wands represent Fire/desire for growth.  Both of these cards represent change, with swords this is swift change.  There is a lot of movement coming, changes…this can be with jobs or even moving. When we have two knights together, you can definitely expect some major change happening.  The main energy of this reading is no fear and strength.  You’re going to have to think quick on your feet, because the energy will be coming quick.  If you have been dragging your feet, or staying in our comfort zone, this energy will be very hectic for you.  Good new is, the Knights assure you that you will be victorious.

Use this new moon energy to release yourself from what binds you, free yourself to what you truly value and love.  This reading and Leo’s energy is urging you to let your inner light shine, be happy, and be healthy.  Make those healthy boundaries that you have been fearing to make, you won’t regret it.  It time to understand that boundaries are not always a bad thing, it is okay to stand up for yourself, and there is a rhyme and reason for structure.  Learn these secrets of this world and thrive!



Meditation ~ The Mirror

•July 22, 2017 • Leave a Comment

I am really not surprised I picked this card, seeing that the Ritual of Mirrors I will be conducting is happening soon.  Mirrors are so commonly used, we really have forgotten the magical uses of them.  Mirrors do one magical thing that many do not truly grasped, they reflect the truth.  As the heron stands at the gate awaiting the initiate, The Dark Woman of Knowledge awaits to take us on our spiritual journey to the Otherworld.  Here, just like Arthur found deep healing on the Isle of Avalon, we too shall experience this healing of our deep wounds.  This meditation card is also known as the “dark night of the soul”, one where a new perspective is taken. The word patience comes up, and it is definitely not a word I like to hear.  The card is telling me that it is time to just allow and not force.  There are things that unfold over time.  This is definitely an energy of change, and maybe that is the resistance here….change.  As we sojourn to the Otherworld for initiation, we know consciously that when we come back, we will not be the same.  We tend to let the mundane world foul us with its false sense of securities, we get so bogged down with that stagnant energy. It’s almost a loosing of one’s Soul.

In this moment, in this time, it is time for us to step back and allow.  It is time to abandon the old thought patterns, the way things “ought to be”, turning the table to see the different side. If we take on challenges as hard lessons, we receive them as such; but if we look at challenges as great opportunities, magic will happen.  The Goddess doesnt require a sacrifice, but with change sacrifices are often made.  In order to have better, we must do better…sacrificing the old way.  Here, we look deeply into the mirror at our own soul, and we are asked to strip away all that is not us.  The crystal ball resembles the moon which lights up the shadows, exposing that which has been hidden.  We like to think we are ready for this, but are we?  Are we willing to leave behind that which is keeping us held back?

The journey is definitely beginning.  The wise heron awaits us at the Gate.  The Lady of the Lake beckons us…calling our name…singing the song of our Soul.  It is time for us to go drink her mystical waters and begin our path with the Dark Woman of Knowledge.

I hear her… you?

Many Blessings,



Happy Mary Magdalene Day

•July 21, 2017 • Leave a Comment


“Admittedly, the reality of Mary Magdalene’s earthly life will never be fully grasped but will always be slipping from us, concealed behind a shroud of myth supposition, and mystery.  For those who worship her as a form of the Goddess or an incarnation of the Gnostic wisdom-figure Sophia, for those who pray to her as a saint or who follow her channeled alchemical teachings, I suspect historical accuracy fades into the background”

~Siobhan Houston “Invoking Mary Magdalene”


She is the one woman mentioned most throughout the bible, but yet barely noticed in Christianity.  Mary Magdalene, now a saint, was Jesus’s most trusted and loved disciple…the Apostle to the Apostles.  Once known as a harlot turned to faithful follower of Jesus, her name is finally being redeemed.  I met Mary Magdalene while I was studying Gnosticism.  She taught me many lessons such as; following my path no matter what others say, and the importance for the silence about the Mysteries.  She taught me grace, self appreciation, and treating my body like the sacred vessel it is.  She was a divine Priestess.  I often where the world would be had she been able to push forward with the path that Jesus taught.  It has become very clear overall the evidence that has been discovered that she was more than just his friend, to me and many others, Mary Magdalene was his wife. Would the world be so unbalanced as it is now?  Or would we have the masculine and feminine energies working in harmony with each other.  Her love of Jesus and faith of their spiritual path left an energy that echos through the centuries.   MaryMagdaleneskull


Even now, as I walk a Pagan path, I can still hear her call to me.  She reminds me of compassion, undying love, and what complete devotion is.  But let us not forget that she, like all, has a dark aspect as The Dark Goddess.  Here, she embodies the dark phase of the moon’s cycle and presides over the mysteries and initiations of the intermediary passage between death and rebirth.  Even in the 4th century bishop Augustine of Hippo, although he detest Goddess worship, pointed out in his book (The City of God) of how her worship was flourishing in his time.  No matter the hate for women many religious figures have, her energy still lives on today.  


In today’s world, the tides have turned as she has been venerated and has saint status. I am very happy that her true self was finally noticed.  July 22nd is reserved for her, so let us celebrate her, in all of her essence, as she was long ago. Let us pay homage to her once again, and truly acknowledge this Apostle to the Apostles.   Once she has blessed you with her energy, she will never forget you.   

Happy Mary Magdalene’s Day, may the great women, as she was, never be forgotten.

All Hail to the Divine Goddess Energy!




reference:  Siobhan Houston “Invoking Mary Magdalene

Meditation ~ The Guardian 

•July 3, 2017 • Leave a Comment

The spiritual path is definitely not for the weak. As you have to go through many self initiations that seem to completely destroy you but yet rebuild you stronger. This spiritual journey requires one to peel back the layers of the self, the ego, all of those things we claim to be. Our journey makes us go deeper beyond the surface down to the core of our being it makes us literally burn to ashes, so we may arise renewed and on stronger foundations. The book states “the bleached white skeleton of a great Cave Bear stands sentinel in the night guarding the entrance to the cave. The guardian Spirit of the Beast challenges those who would enter the cave of ancestral memory without understanding the nature of their own Darkness”.  I  not surprises that is card appeared right after the Great Bear card, as that card invites you into the darkness to heal and renew. The Guardian stands before us and challenges us. One of our greatest challenges is that of facing our own fears. What are your fears? What are you afraid of? Is it your own greatness? If this image scares you, then you might need to ask yourself, what scares you when you look onto the mirror?  

This is a great meditation as we approach the full moon on the 9th. May this energy being light to that which hides in the darkness.